I’ve been gone and not posting for quite a while lately. Our family is going through the hardships of losing a loved one. I feel like this death rattled me more than the loss of my last grandparent because it was just so sudden. One minute she was fine and the next I am getting a phone call at 5am telling me she is gone. The whole thing has been a rough go for me and I am still trying to wrap my head around what makes this grandparent death so different from the others but it’s been a struggle. There is also the fact that she was my last paternal grandparent so the whole settling of her estate and having to take care of her house (which I spent heaps of my childhood at) and other things. The thought of her house, where everyone went to celebrate and have fun, might no longer be part of our family is a hard pill to swallow. Just thinking of my kids not being able to pick blackberries or apples there and not being able to go fishing, just breaks my heart. I cherish the memories of all my adventures there. I will probably be absent for a while longer since I am going back home to help with the estate and to get things settled. It is at times like these that I hate the fact I live 12 hours for the rest of my family. I do have a lot of stuff to update and I will try to get that done. If anyone follows me on Instagram you will be able to see my latest project that I still have not posted about here. There will be more blog post, I promise. I swear I am still here and I will return.
Hopefully very soon!